Tales Of Sleepless Romance And Lovers You Can’t Control

Day 16 of The Andie Chronicles

I didn’t get much sleep last night.

Hardly any if I’m honest with you. 

I kept thinking about what I would say to Douglas on Friday night. 

How could I get in first? How could I say something that would make me the winner of the breakup? 

What could I say to make sure I could tell everyone I was the one who ended it?

These were awful thoughts. 

In reality, it doesn’t really matter who ends it, except when you want sympathy from loved ones. If you’ve cheated and broken your partner’s heart, you get nothing. 

But if you’ve been walked all over and dumped unceremoniously, people often don’t have sympathy for you either. You should have seen it coming, right? 

Either way, this whole breakup thing is a minefield. And when you see it coming, you can only do your best to navigate in a way that helps you sleep at night.

Considering I wasn’t sleeping, I thought I could take out some of my anxiety on the spin bike. 

Better than sitting still and letting the thoughts take over. 

I caught the early spin class and then did my usual session with GG. By the time I finished the second class, my legs and bum were aching, and I couldn’t think about anything else.

GG wanted to talk about what happened on Saturday night, about how James stayed with her and her boyfriend Taylor.