It had been a long day.
After speaking with GG about the whole miss flow of information at the gym, to the long supplier meeting James and I had over the afternoon, I had never felt so tired in a long time. I have to admit I’ve been grateful for the distraction.
Aside from awkward conversations with my friends, I hadn’t a moment to really think about the fact I was single and entering my new single-girl phase.
When I look at the situation I don’t care that I’m single. I don’t need a man to complete me. I don’t need a relationship to feel a certain way about my life. Yet, I was enjoying being with Douglas.
I miss him right now. I miss the life we were building.
Married at first sight is on television. I promised James not to watch the social experiment. He thinks that watching other couples figure out what they want and go through quasi-marriage counseling would be an unwanted reminder of what was happening in my life. I agreed with him, only to get him off my back.
In reality, watching other people go through as much turmoil as I felt like some sort of validation. Other people have it rough, even those whose sole job is to make a relationship work.
Or seemingly work for the cameras.
If they have it rough, it’s ok for me to have it rough as well.
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