Day 80: Tales Of Reseting Friendships And Date Night Outfits

Day 80 Of How To Move On From A Man — 1LD

Ellen "Jelly" McRae

Apr 25, 2023

There were days when I hated going to the gym.

I couldn’t tell you why I was going there except for the fact I know it’s something I should do.

The should economy of life is one that can really screw you up. You should be a good person.

You should be honest.

You should do the right thing.

Buy into too many shoulds in your life and you will send yourself crazy.

But considering I had a lunch date with an old friend, and old flame, tomorrow, I felt the extra spring in my step this morning.

A reason to feel motivated, if you will. Not that I only needed to exercise when a man was in my life.

Yet, with my romantic and plutonic relationships kicking my ass every day, it was a welcomed change to my current predicament.

Arriving back at 1 Lovelock Drive, I hoped James would be home. At our desk. Working. A return to routine.

But as I put my key in the door, I felt the double click of the deadlock, something we did every time we left the house.

I was holding out hope up until then. Perhaps it was the way the day had started; it felt like a normal day in my life. Yet, as soon as I came home, all the warm and fuzzy feelings of the status quo returning vanished.

False hope I know. Our life didn’t break overnight. And the fact I had a date of sorts with an old friend wasn’t going to restore it.

After showering, I found myself in my closet, combing through clothes to find the perfect combination. Something that looked chic yet effortless. Like I belonged in the city, but not one of the corporates in their tailored uniforms.

An hour later and I settled on a pinstriped blazer dress, opaque stockings and my vintage YSL boots I liberated from a garage sale.

With everything together, I didn’t quite look like myself.

I was a version of me, one that had her life together. And who had men fawning all over her.

One could hope, right?

Well, I did have one man who wanted to spend time with me. And asking me to lunch. That was something.

If my friends were actually involved in my life right now, I would have told them about running into Alex. I’m sure Sophia remembers him from our university days. I’m pretty sure she was there the night Alex took me into the stalls at Revellers and tried to have his way with me.

Ahh, good times.

Day 80: Tales Of Reseting Friendships And Date Night Outfits

Day 80 Of How To Move On From A Man — 1LD

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