Everyone Fears You're Not Going To Get It Right
Everyone Fears You're Not Going To Get It Right
Behind The 1LD Jellyverse: Episode One
💜 Welcome to 1 Lovelock Drive 💜
At this humble address in the middle of Melbourne’s suburbia is where I transcribe the events between me and my three friends/colleagues/ride or die/confidants — GG, James and Sophia.
This column is all about the collision of love, sex and expectations. Enjoy xx
Sitting on the couch with my legs crossed on the ottoman, watching an episode of The Big Bang Theory for the millionth time, I’m feeling pretty lucky.
I mean, I get to write about this fabulously sexy world the way I want to.
There’s no boss standing behind me, asking me about deadlines.
There’s no wondering who’s going to object to my taste in writing inspiration and ask me to keep the volume down.
Sometimes I have to remind myself how lucky I am. I get to write about the reality fiction world the way I want to tell it. If I was passing on any advice,
I would suggest you give it a try.
I’m currently working on a gigantic 2023 plan for 1LD. This is probably one of the most exciting yet scariest plans I’ve ever made.
I love it because I feel like a big old blueprint gives me a clear and concise direction to follow. It’s easy to get off course when it’s just you and the computer.
You can convince yourself any idea is good, or that quitting is a good idea.
The plan is my foolproof method to help me convey the 1LD world a little bit better.
I know I haven’t been perfect yet. I mean, I hope to never be perfect. You don’t get anywhere when you believe you’re perfect. But enough of that.
I realise I haven’t pushed the idea as far as it could go, or even begun to scrape the surface of the world I know is there.
For example, I need to be better at updating the list article where I keep you up to date with all the storyline changes. It’s on my weekly list of things to do, I promise you.
It’s not just that. I know I could tell more stories, answer more of your questions and give you a space to tell your story too. I want to do all those things. Thankfully I have the plan, one I will put into full force come January 1st.
Well, let’s be real here, January 2nd.
I’m flying over Antarctica on New Years’ Eve on a sightseeing tour and plan to sleep the entire first day of 2023. It will be incredible but tiring. Worth it though.
I wonder about my character in 1LD. Would she go on an Antarctic flight on New Years’ Eve?
Not without James, GG, or Sophia, that’s for sure. I’m going with my husband but as you may know, the “me” character is single.
You could say it’s me from twelve years ago. I hope my character finds what I have now. I’m sure she will.
I wanted to let you know I don’t have anyone working for me; it’s just me, my office, sometimes the couch, sometimes the bed in the upstairs spare room.
When I look at 1LD and think about it not being what I wanted it to be, I remember I only have one pair of hands. It will come in due course.
I have to quit being so hard on myself. And if you run your own business, side hustle, or anything you’re doing, take it easy on yourself.
As long as you’re trying, you’re winning.
2023 is going to be here before we know it. We’re going to be celebrating the holidays, surviving awkward family reunions, and spending boatloads of money on food, and gifts. And a good time.
I secretly love the end of the year. I get to have moments like this and reset my timeline. Make lemonade.
I try to make lemons out of life’s lemonades. Sometimes I try to make lemonade when I get limes too. That never goes so well, though.
As you may be able to tell, I’m nervous about the future. Positive, optimistic but shitting myself. I’ve dreamed of creating this world for a long time. It started with The Little Black Book and morphed into 1LD when I felt the way I was telling my story needed adjusting.
I’ve always wanted to tell what happened to me with my friends, and replace the memories with this modern spin.
I’m not twenty anymore, I’m not sixteen anymore either.
Yet, those times in my life have defined me more than I care to admit. I have to tell this story.
I have to get it off my chest.
I hope I can do my story justice whilst creating a world that relates to you. What I’m most nervous about is the latter.
As much as I’ve been overwhelmed by the response, I’ve never had a gleaming response that helps me sleep at night. I don’t get a lot of questions, comments, hearts, or claps for 1LD.
That’s ok by the way.
I won’t stop building this world despite the reception it gets. I’m also not building it for success either.
I guess it doesn’t help my nerves when I don’t have a tribe beside me. Yet, I know they are there. You’re here, after all. You are here at the most poignant and jubilant time of this journey.
It all gets better from here.
That’s the best part.
The world of 1LD doesn’t just live on the pages here. I want to invite you into that world, Ellen’s world, the Jellyverse as I’ve dubbed it. I hope you have as much fun in the world as I do.
Until the next time I open the Jellyverse… see you then xx
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